Read the continuation of my unexpected lock-in at the Sacred Grotto dedicated to Our Lady of Mellieha on Malta...

....as I was about to get myself onto that wall (...hoping that this would really never make any newspaper! that would be double emberrassing) ... and my head peeked out above the next Wall I had to climb, I saw a local lady walking her dog and she was coming downhill towards me. She would pass me by in a few moments!! I quickly turned around, nearly fell off the wall the wrong way around but managed to hold balance and jump off right behind the gate while loudly saying "EXCUSE MEEE, CAN YOU PLEASE HELP", giving the poor lady a near 'heart-attack' as she was about to pass by....

Well, why I felt nervous became clear pretty soon: I got no apology at all, that's for sure. The nun in white was really quite upset with me… she took one look at me and quite obviously disagreed with my outfit. (so did I.. to be honest, but the divine energy I felt before obviously didn't mind.)  The next thing I knew, I got a big lecture on reading the closing times a next time, as it CLEARLY SAID ON THE GATE that they closed AT 7PM!! She even pointed the times out to me too.  (...well, I won't have to read those closing times a next time, I'll forever remember them now... ) and she continued...that I was just lucky she was still around with the key...etc... a waterfall of upset was poured over me.

I was a little shell-shocked, why did she make me feel sooooo guilty, I really hadn't done that much wrong... had I??… I almost started to doubt myself, I stumbled an apology and told her that I had had such a beautiful experience and that I had read the times the day before and thought they closed at 8pm. That I had just mixed up the opening and closing times.


But she wasn’t at all interested in what had happened, and even if I would have told her a miracle had happened ( which it did.. as it turned out later, see the "PS" of this story), she would have still been upset with me! I found it a strange reaction, and thought that a nun would have been more  gentle and aware of her own doing…?  but no, she was merciless and I walked away almost feeling ashamed for going into the grotto at all. It nearly ruined the beautiful experiences I’d had. I felt so judged …

As I was pondering about it in my hotel room later, clean and decent again, trying to shake off her angry words I realized I really had not done anything wrong. Her reaction really taught me to make even more sure then I normally do to not judge a person by their outer presentation on a first encounter. Had she seen me in the clothes of that morning she’d probably reacted quite differently. As I tuned into the whole ordeal the following came up:.. maybe she felt caught, in that she had never checked if anybody was there and she took this out on me. Now THAT made much more sense.

This happens a lot: we get caught in doing something we shouldn’t do, and we easily blame the other person to cover up our own bad actions. We tell a white lie, or we manipulate the other person because we don’t want to be responsible… we do not want to sit on the blisters.

To me ‘being spiritual’, working with God, the Angels, Goddess, the Sacred Mother or any other Divine being means to be responsible for yourself, for your actions. It means being accountable. Not owning up, well it means being a coward. Messing like that with someone else’s truth and insight can be quite confusing and damaging… ( most people know the truth by heart in any situation, but another’s lie or cover up will make them doubt themselves and this creates a damaging pattern of insecurity. A next time they know the truth by heart, this doubt will be triggered and the first steps to losing track of the inner voice have been made.)

Living a life dedicated to your spirit and soul, to your sacredness means to be responsible, honest, kind and truthful. We can’t always keep this up and that’s ok. We don’t have to be perfect, and we don't have to be on our knees to ask for forgiveness either... but we can own up, we can just accept what we did and confess it. It’s the lightest way to be for everyone involved. This makes it easy for another to forgive you, saving it for later always ruins more then you could have imagined... and it burdens all people involved longer then neccesary.

My last thoughts on why this might have happened? Well, the whole incident tickled my feathers in not feeling guilty just because someone else takes their stuff out on me and it changed the course of my eve. It inspired me tremendously, so in stead of going out wrote till deep in the night.. while receiving the above insights:
to never judge a book by its cover, to be responsible for you own actions at all times and I did have a good look at where I had wondered of that path myself as I believe life's a mirror too... and all that night i was still resonating with that tremendous energy I had experienced in the grotto… feeling blesed with a colourful life that is both very funny, guided and divine...

all my love and blessings,
Sacha xx

ps. that night, after being touched by this divine light in the "Grotto of Our Lady of Mellieha", my nighttime dreams and visions returned. They had been scarse for a long time, not sure when they vanished. It might have been after my carcrash, it might have been that something was blocking it... but since that day I've been dreaming every night.

My dreams mostly carry premonitions in them, things that help me walk my path with more clarity, dreams for my friends and clients, insights that help me to be ahead of what is to come. I'd missed them so much and I was so happy they were back.

and, when thinking back all the things I'd asked for on that day in that meditation, they all came through during that week in Malta... it was such synchronicity that it was almost scary. I do feel that my forgiveness practice was the catalyst for this experience, and I am so deeply grateful for it. Working with forgiveness is absolutely magical in a most light and simple way. Magic happens when we truly are ready to forgive... it opens all doors, on all levels .. ha... including the one from the grotto!

All my love and blessings!
Sacha xx