So what happened right before I got locked in to that Grotto? Well, I'll tell you: One of the things I practiced extensively while on holiday in Malta, was 'Forgiveness'. In particular forgiving someone who had hurt me deeply. It was time now to release it. I was ready...
On the second morning I entered the grotto with a friend and after we had done our ritual with candles and incense, we sat there in silence... there is a natural sacredness and love in this grotto that anybody can feel and it elevates and nurtures you effortlessly.
While sitting there, I felt the need to place my hand at the back of my friend's heart and just bless it with all the love and light I had in me. I could feel my friends heart responding and opening to unconditional love straight away.
He really was touched... My friend stood up after I took my hand away a while later and went on with the day, I stayed behind alone... as I sat there in silence a longing for my visions came up and I wondered if they would ever return in the same intensity as before. While I meditated I slipped into a deep energy in which I saw myself bathe in the sacred waters that flow into the grotto and to my surprise two doors opened right behind the Statue of Our Lady.
I entered the doorway that was revealed and as I did so, I received a flashback of a similar experience that had happend back in 1999 while sitting in the grotto in Lourdes (France). A similar doorway had opened there which led to profound changes in my life. When the flashback passed, I was left with an image of the Great Mother in the most shiny whitegolden light you could imagine... only for a short moment I saw Her in all her grace and then the image faded but the energy of it lingered and lifted me. I felt diferent.
What I had sensed for my friend got confirmed later that morning when a huge bunch of flowers got delivered to my room as a "thank you". My friend had truly received the blessing to his heart. It was the beginning of a magical day. I went to the beach, practicing forgiveness in a much lighter way. A wonderful quiet sunny day unfolded. I felt totally at peace, centered and balanced... no need for anything, no need to seek anything, no need to do daytrips... just a need to relax and be with life...
On the way back, I decided to walk up the hill instead of taking the bus. On my way I met an elderly lady, who was almost fainting from the heat. I went over to help her stand as she felt nauseous. I stayed with her and gave her my bottle of water as it seemed she was dehydrating. Soon she felt much better and I could walk on leaving her with her daughter that had arrived. While coming past the grotto, almost at the top of the hill, I felt such a strong need to go back in. I hesitated for a moment at the entrance, I was dressed unsuitably coming from the beach, but the pull to go into the grotto was just so strong.
As soon as I sat down the energy and deep meditative state from that morning returned: the Image of the Great Mother behind the doors in that same golden white light. Had I lost the image in the morning, it was there now in its full force. I knew it wouldn't fade this time. This was why I had felt such a strong need to return here. Now I saw that Mary beckoned me and 'I' moved towards her.
As I approached slowly she raised her hand, with a pointed finger to me and slowly touched me in my third eye. Her energy and white/golden light entered my body there... the energy just spread through my whole body like a warm glow. An undescribable feeling so full of greatness came over me and I just sat there, bathing in that light and unconditional eternal love. The words I heard were: "I bless you with my power to see" ...
After a while it was done, the image and energy faded and all became 'normal' again. I wrote it down and let the energy settle for a while before I 'floated' up the stairs, silenced and deeply touched by what had just happened so unexpectedly. You can imagine the sheer contrast of then finding out to be locked-in... and having to call for help!
After being rescued by the angry nun, I stayed in that night. With losing my dreams and visions a while back I had also lost the passion to write in my diaries. I've written in diaries all my life but the past two years or so, it just wouldn't happen, as if it were blocked: quite unlike me. Without being locked-in I would have gone out... but in my room, that eve .. I wrote and wrote and wrote and let the energy just float into my new diary. Obviously the lock-in changed the course of my evening and it opened the door to my creativity through writing. I went to bed fulfilled and looking forward to the next time I would go to the grotto...
When I woke up in the morning I had had the most colourful long crystal clear dream ever. And I knew that my 'pondering thought' in the grotto had become reality: My nighttime dreams and visions had returned! I was so incredibly happy. What an unexpected treasure this holiday was turning out to be! ( booked only two days before I left in a spontaneous moment and without any other keywords then: safety, hot and beach on the agenda... life is guiding me pretty well putting me in a Hotel next to this grotto!)
As a bonus, the person I was forgiving in that week, the pain of the betrayal.... all of it just faded completely from my heart after having been touched in that grotto. It felt so light, so new, so whole once again. I realise now, three weeks later, that life also showed me the opposite side of what I was trying to forgive. I got to see some of the motives in another light and received a few important insights. I needed to fully release this situation and let go once and for all.
The synchronicity of events in that week were almost spooky,... people I met that 'played out parts' of my story in their own lives, while telling me about it and teaching me once again how amazing life is when we are allowed to see through the veil, when we take the time and effort to practice deeper spiritual tools. Life just starts to show you its magic and helping hand. I was on holiday and yet I was 'working' round the clock on a whole other level.
I have dreamt almost every night since, each dream telling me amazing hidden truths. It feels like a big sweep of a deeper purity has moved through my life. I had lost my visons once, but they were now back in a most powerful way.
The soulreadings and deep peace treatments have gained a new level of depth, love, clarity and strength. I've entered another deeper stage of my work and I am loving it. How magical this life is!!
I look forward to sharing these new energies with you in my treatments... whether it is in the UK, Holland or Switzerland... I will be happy to pass it on to whomever comes to see me.